i have that disease where you can't sleep when it is the time to. i lie awake thinking of what was said. it makes me nervous. and it makes me hurt. all i can do is hope for the best and give it my all. only fourty five days til this is all over with. but even then we will not be alone and that is all that i want is to be alone with you so that i can feel like all of our problems have flown out the window. just you and i and the laughter we share is what i need. i want this feeling of sadness to go away, even though its only been here for about an hour. all i can do is wait to see what is around the next corner.
it is hard for me too.